In every thought in every laugh and every subtle joke with every step I take in the morning when I wake when I turn the key of my home when I pick up my phone hoping it's you and I feel a tiny gleam of hope in my heart... Aching to bloom. In all things of beauty every sparkling star. The shuffle of your stride, the moonbeam in the dark The smell of fresh cut grass in the park The sounds of love surround me and I wonder how I shall escape them when I wake... And then, in my sleep, they creep in like thieves, robbing me blind... And I feel you close enough to touch and smell your heat. These are the ties that truly bind... No lifestyle, no submission, *******, or ****** act of contrition... Rather the subtle pressure of your hand on my wrist, professing that while it is over now, it was never casual, it was significant and with hope's most earnest desire.