It started with a phone call Sent my hands shaking Like his did, laying on that hospital bed Like my voice did, the next day when I lied About the truth. The Truth. The truth is that I was terrified I was confused, I was hurt, I was furious And He was there, but he wasn't… He was there on that hospital bed He was there with his hands shaking He was there, his body convulsing He was there, his wild blue eyes darting about the elevator he wasn't there at all…
It started with a phone call Your mom is coming, you have to go. It must be an appointment i couldn't think of one… Is someone dead? well no, not really... We're going to the hospital The hospital? I thought that was only for babies and old people OCD, what's that? Oh, I mean, "O.D.'ed" Same difference? not really, no…
The next day, I lied. I couldn't tell the truth, The truth was hiding Behind hospital doors, and hands that shook. Hushed voices carried the truth in tones too low to be heard. The truth attacked me at night In memories that sent me shaking Shivering so violently my mom got scared. The truth was blue The truth was screaming at me From the blue eyes of my brother When he looked at me, and asked what it was like. Not that he looked at me, not really…