Feeling everything so deeply
While feeling like nothing

So calm on the outside
And so violently shaken within

Being able to smile and laugh
All while screaming tears inside

The overwhelming desire for company
Yet, the unwanted urge to be alone

Desperately longing for sincere and mutual love
While wishing such desire would stop haunting me

Wanting to sleep forever to escape this living nightmare
Even as I wish to wake from this slumber to live out my dreams

The maddening need to be free of this mental cage
Despite the hopelessness of wanting to throw away the key

Feeling so full of raging life
While feeling so dead and empty inside