My eyes have seen the body of a lifeless tiny son They have fiercely wept for heartache when life from my womb was torn They have held in them the vestige of a perfectly formed son My grief keeps lasting on.
My eyes have seen the pink stripe of a second ray of hope They have gently wept from joy while I grabbed the saving rope They've beheld the wriggling grey shape of a tiny new sweet babe My love keeps hanging on.
Experiencing the contrast of two vastly different emotions has been eye-opening. To experience grief combined with new joy has been an exceptional experience. To live in grey tinged with the pink rays of a rising sun has been just exceptional. All that said, the grayness of grief is still here and, some days, it still wins. I desire your prayers, if you are so inclined <3