sometimes it just feels like having to make an interjection, accompanied by, and listening to, and making do away the slightest spiderweb tickle... sometimes it just feels like you writing something and your muse is only an insomniac radio d.j., and it really does feel like a freefall sometimes, having taken the time to possess a library of music, giving it all up to simple turn on the radio.... it can appear pointless at times... but then you can hardly stomach the need for adverts... and because of adverts you started building up a music library... but then again, once more: you end up only writing for a niche... i live a few miles from London, but given my holiday to the most obscure place in Poland... London is about as far as the moon from where i'm criss-crossing... tango of a daddy-longshanks spider... confirming that with the crown beheld by Edward IV... was radio, always the necessary blockage, the necessary sound when you woke up? i built a music library and became prone to listening to the radio at 3a.m.... nice... real nice, i'm about to do a Borat impersonation with the words: jak sie masz? i.e. how are you? don't know, given a jew asked it, i'm starting to wonder what it means to be alive in Tel Aviv these days.... and that really is: balaclava worth a statement on it own. if i knew i'd come back to listening to the radio, i wouldn't care to make a compendium of obscure music, i'd throw the television out, and i'd read a poem more often than taking to the ritual of ingesting a newspaper... see the ailment? bound to wishing to be blown up in a terrorist attack? for most days, i feel like a street-cleaner of the past ought-nots and did-in-fact happenings, later slimmed into a new year's eve firework sadness concealing a claim to a celebration.