If he isnt fully there for you
are the fragments of what you do have worth keeping?
if your not fully there for guys then are you worth holding onto?
being torn between what you want and what you know you deserve

lost
frustrated
drowning with desperation to grab onto something thats real and will help you to float.

why is it so hard to meet the right guy
someone worth my while.
maybe it is because my fear holds me from fully submerging

each additional break
calcifies the shell
even thicker and thicker  
until one day
it will be unbreakable.