The past couple days I can already feel a change coming.
Hoping it's for the better and not the worse.
I have hurt to many people for everything I have done.
I need to get rid of this beast inside of me for good and become the man I want to be.
I have hurt myself and others for far too long.
I want to better myself first before I can Love again.
I can't find true love with the beast inside taking over and to lie and cheat with the person I am with.
I am going to take the opportunity to better myself and finally become the man who I want to be and actually be loyal and honest with the person whom I love the most.
Maybe not next week, next month, or the next 6 months.
However long it takes to better myself I will do it.
I know who I care about and want to be with.
I hurt her badly to the point of possibly no return.
Whether she stays or goes I won't stop bettering myself.
Only time and effort can tell..........