i'm forcing words out
just to fight the /lonely/

but it doesn't work
nothing ever does

not even twelve hours of sleep
not even chocolates or sweets
not even countless cat videos

nothing ever does

not even when i'm surrounded with people
the /lonely/ doesn't leave
company makes me more solitary

lying in bed alone at ten in the morning

feels
the
same
as

being with people but just faking happy

heck
the
former
is
more
comforting

so tell me
how do you heal this /lonely/

how do you break free from its chains
i've been a captive for so long
i don't even remember how to not be

who even am i without the /lonely/

but these days i can't even function properly
i'm sinking deeper
deeper
deeper

words used to make me stay afloat
but now they're just w o r d s

and i can't find salvation anywhere

so tell me
how do you fight this /lonely/

tell me
before it completely drowns me