hi i just want to remind you to keep going
you'll get out of your winter soon
spring will come
i hope you'll find strength and warmth within these words
if not, i hope you'll find it elsewhere
just strive and thrive for a little bit longer
it'll get warmer eventually
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 2:14 PM UTC
what do you call that hurt you feel that is less than a heartbreak?
you know the one that you can't categorize as heart wrecking pain but still makes you want to rip your heart out?
the one that makes your heart hurt just enough so that you can still carry on with your daily life
but still enough to keep you up at night
it's like a cut that will not make you bleed
but will still leave a scar
it will scar and remind you of someone
someone who showed interest
someone who caught you off guard
someone who made your heart flutter
someone who keeps you up at night thinking about the endless what ifs
what if you had given it more time?
would the cut be deep enough to bleed?
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 4:10 AM UTC
and once again, i'm stuck
trapped in this loophole
of disappoinment and
unhappiness
it's like an endless routine
where i'm standing still
watching everyone go
and grow
while i'm just here,
stuck inside the void
inside of me
and once again, i'm stuck
trapped in this loophole
stuck at the lowest point
again (repeat x times)
Apr 3, 2017
Apr 3, 2017 at 11:25 AM UTC
a bittersweet scent fills the air
some are blissfully unaware
trap on their own world for two
some are filled with despair
trap on their hearts reserved for /you/
some are questioning what they have
some are still holding on the past
some are just barely holding on the pieces
some are clawing their way out
some are confused, some are clueless
some are waiting for a surprise
some are wishing for anything at all
some are hurting, some are hurting
letters, flowers, chocolates, surprises
let me show you my love
oh no we're just friends
this doesn't mean anything
you know that you didn't have to
I wanted to
thanks but...
I understand
When will my time come?
Feb 17, 2017
Feb 17, 2017 at 11:09 AM UTC
Let her go
because all that hurt isn't worth it
and we both know that
you're only holding on a ghost
admit it,
she already left months ago
How can you call it love when
you've been hurt over and over again
Aren't you tired
of the same act that she plays
she's not even a good actress
Aren't you tired?
You deserve happiness
and admit it you won't ever find it with her
I hope that you realize your worth
don't waste your love on her
Jan 10, 2017
Jan 10, 2017 at 8:53 AM UTC
"she's not like other girls"
she'll probably give you **** when you say that to her
she's not an exception
she believes in every girl's beauty
she believes in the splendor of the world
her eyes sparkle with wonder
her feet itch to wander
her heart soars for all that is beautiful
but she also believes in all the ugliness of the world
her eyes shut with horror
her feet refuse to stand up
her heart breaks for the sake of humanity
she will not comply to your standards
because she'll sometimes be inadequate
or because defiance will appeal to her more
she does things in her own quirk and pace
she'll heat water and make coffee
then put in the fridge to let it cool
she'll wait for the weekend just to
waste her time in bed
she'll throw a party when she reach
a certain age just because
she thinks it's a good number
she'll be distant for a couple of days
she'll come back eventually
she'll just wander through her solitude
she's pretty
but not that pretty
or so she thinks
she wears a crop top but then gets
bothered whenever a bit of skin is exposed
she swears to only wear neutral clothes
but lets her mother buy her some color
she admires other people's body but
is still in the process of loving her own
she pours water to make the glass full
she sips just enough to make it half empty
maybe that's why her lips are chapped
she's different just like everyone else
she's no chosen one
she is not destined to save the world or anyone
except maybe herself
she's not a special snowflake
though sometimes
she think she is
she is not an exception
she is not an
she is not
she is
she
Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 2:35 AM UTC
i'm forcing words out
just to fight the /lonely/
but it doesn't work
nothing ever does
not even twelve hours of sleep
not even chocolates or sweets
not even countless cat videos
nothing ever does
not even when i'm surrounded with people
the /lonely/ doesn't leave
company makes me more solitary
lying in bed alone at ten in the morning
feels
the
same
as
being with people but just faking happy
heck
the
former
is
more
comforting
so tell me
how do you heal this /lonely/
how do you break free from its chains
i've been a captive for so long
i don't even remember how to not be
who even am i without the /lonely/
but these days i can't even function properly
i'm sinking deeper
deeper
deeper
words used to make me stay afloat
but now they're just w o r d s
and i can't find salvation anywhere
so tell me
how do you fight this /lonely/
tell me
before it completely drowns me
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 10:21 PM UTC
thank you for coming into my life
for knocking on my closed doors
i'm sorry for the days when it seem like there's no one on the other side,
for the days when i forget that i'm not alone
i know that you also get those kind of days,
when ghosts come uninvited
and i'm sorry for not being there
but i also know that you're strong
and capable of chasing them away
you're one of the strongest persons i've met
(but you're also one of the most fragile)
i'm thankful that the universe conspired for us to not only meet,
or cross paths
or be acquainted
or settle for what we already had
but also to be more than that
more than i ever thought would be possible
maybe it's just you and your persistence
that tied our constellations together
but it's bigger than that, it's bigger than us
he's bigger than the universe and its conspiracies
and i thank Him everyday for the gift of your existence
i often wonder if my impact on your life is as big as your impact on mine
i know that it's not
you're surrounded by all these wonderful people
and i'm happy that you are
just remember that i may not be the first person you will run to
but i'll always be here for you
and i will always support you
in whatever you do
in wherever you go
in whoever you choose to be
or to be with
i will always support you
*or not if it'll probably
be something you'll regret after*
i have a bad history with friendship
i am filled with distant memories from strangers
with moments from the time of what once was
it's sad
and i don't want that to happen to us
i hope not
because i want to be there in your future
i want to be part of your future
you're one of the brightest constellations i've seen
(even on your bad days)
and i want to witness your good days
your best days
the days we've always dreamed of,
the unforgettable ones
the ones that doesn't involve school and tiring routines
i know that we'll make it
i wish you all the happiness
and fewer sad days
i also wish you love
may you find it at the right place
at the right time
from the right people
and from yourself
because you are not as terrible as you think you are
you are loved, you are wanted
and believe me—
we are thankful for your existence,
i am thankful for your existence
(and i hope that this day will be one of the unforgettable ones)
Dec 10, 2016
Dec 10, 2016 at 12:04 PM UTC
*Words could be a dangerous thing.
Once they are said, they can’t be forgotten.
But what’s more even dangerous is the idea of ‘you’
Once, you felt home but soon became storm.
Love stories could be a wonderful thing.
Once they are read, they can fascinate us.
But our story wasn’t perfect as everyone would expect,
It narrates how you put me into dark abyss of loneliness.
Songs could be a powerful magic.
Once they are heard, they give meaning to everything.
Yet our song consists of sad melody and unsaid words,
It is pleasant until it drowns you.
And like a photograph that captures everything,
That is supposed to be kept on your pocket.
But our photograph isn’t worth to keep
I’d rather let it carried by flood along with your memories.*
Dec 8, 2016
Dec 8, 2016 at 6:40 PM UTC