written August 28th, 2016

"Numb to the illusion that past feelings are not present

Numb to the inevitable, reserved, and repressed thoughts that are now coming to the surface

Numb to the cold salty water drops that are making a daily appearance

Numb to the fact that I'm blind that we are not the same

I feel so numb, when I hear your name

Heart starts racing, mind moves at millions

I can not fathom the 'what ifs' and 'whys'  yet they're all that crosses through my mind

I need someone to thaw me out

I need the old you back, to make me feel warm again"