I drowned in the self love you taught me but even worse...it left when you did.
I don't know if I loved you, how do you even know? You gave me hope that I wouldn't be so alone in this new big world of mine
But, turns out that I wasted your time
I don't know why I wasn't enough but hell...at this point, that's not what bothers me
It bothers me that you took every ounce that I poured into you but couldn't bother to absorb my weeping minerals
As the days go on, I can't help but to feel confused
Because sometimes I'm those weeping minerals begging to be absorbed by the first thing to come my way
Then
Other days, I'm a ******* stunning willow that has taken those minerals and bloomed
I don't need you, just like you don't need me
I just wish you would've known that I was too much to absorb before I let my roots run dry
Drier than the desert, trying to satisfy your roots,
But
It's okay
Because I will continue to bloom into my ******* stunning willow
While you will eventually beg for me to come water your roots
I will be beautiful & touchless
& you...
You will be shriveled up & dying like I once was for a splash of affection