i need a distraction something to be heard above the perpetual electric buzzing, human eclectic humming, cognitive corrective numbing is my mind running straight, or am i becoming a paradox?
how many distractions can possibly fit in before i finally get enough to distract from all the distractions i never asked for? millions of distractions (from who knows what place) but i think i think i need to make the space for just one more to add the the show because i really just don’t know,
i don’t know what to say when asked about the weather.
i need a distraction but please don’t give me something that tries to be heard by screaming a half-pitch higher than all the other screaming screamers because i spent years holding my breath when my mom drove over bridges, my dog never stopped barking when you yelled and as many times as i’ve tried i’ve never been able to write my name with a sharpie on my frayed black leggings in the dark so i know nothing works that way.
distract me (yes) but do it with a whisper.
because i agree, it really is, it’s a kicker that the sunshine fits her so well but won’t fit us.
but it would never fit you or i that’s not who we are. (we’re just people that cry when we look at the stars, just some kids with souls that hold black holes and whisper lies in the dark)
but we’ve still got a chance. our dark could defy what her sunshine denies…
but i guess it must make me sick to think about because it is exactly why i need a distraction
because i’m always thinking so i’m always sick
because there’s a black hole just of thought inside my tummy and it hurts sometimes because if i look inside myself I’ll be ****** straight in and all i’ll hear is the numbing din
because my brain won’t stop growing fuzz
because it is all mossy mountains and nebulous fog when all i want is a big flat lake and a clear open sky but in the wake of this motorboat mind i guess that’s kind of hard to find
so please until i do find something of that kind i need a distraction
and though i might not be willing to get lost in my own brain jungle i’ll get lost in you any day.