I honestly am just really sad and hurt. Not the kind of hurt like you fall and scrape your knee on the cold cement. Not the kind of sad when you lay in bed silently sobbing, hoping it will end soon. I feel the kind of sad where the feeling is so much it's almost nothing. That I want to ball my eyes out and scream so bad but instead I blankly stare at the wall for hours on end. The hurt where I can feel my heart aching in my cheats so bad, I want to rip it out. I wish it all could just be over. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm done feeling this anymore.