My dream was like a blur
It has become something that was out of my reach.
It was like those nights where I cannot remember anything
For I have drowned myself in alcohol that tasted like failure and disappointment.
With the amount of ***** I have consumed
I have damaged my liver
Just like how every friendship and relationship I've ever encountered with.
And all those blunts that I was smoking made me think deeply that my dream was just a silly, foolish dream.
I laughed so hard at the thought of me having a purpose in this life
When everything I touched turned into fire.
And maybe that is why I turned to drugs and alcohol so the only person I'll be damaging is myself.
In that moment I could feel the ambiance of my dream fading and I could feel detachment within my own soul.
It is crying out loud to get out of me
Isn't that such a tragic thing when even your own self is tired of you.

But then a euphoric light happened
This corner inside my mind with such a soft, quiet voice showed me a glimpse of my hopes and dreams that I thought was long gone.
In that little tiny hope and a voice that has calling me for a while, I didn't hear or notice it for the days I was intoxicated and high.
It has made its calling
In that moment I found myself wishful thinking.
Which I haven't done in so long
Ever since I started to believe in myself again,
My dream wasn't so blur and I think that I could reach it within my palm.
I know that I could reach my full potential
This time, this time I know I'm going the right path
I was lost and got off track.
Now I'm going on my own pace and I guess you have to lose yourself to find what it is you want and know that you deserve the best.
I've found my purpose. I am acknowledging my worth and my dream is so bright and clear, ready to burst out of me to share to the world.
I never thought I'd unravel this part of me.
But I am so very glad that I am slowly but surely loving myself more to be the best that I can be.