Right now there are 11 empty bottles of alcohol on my floor
It's fine, I'm fine
I always wondered why people drink.
I never liked the taste of alcohol
But right now, being drunk is the only thing
Getting me through the day.
When I'm drunk I dont remember things like
You telling me I felt like home
How my laughter cured your sadness
I try not to think about those things
Because it makes me
Really
*******
Sad
I set that book you gave me on fire.
It was filled with poems about you
And us
And love
**** love
I miss your laugh
I remember this one time I slipped on the grass at Austin's and busted my ***
And you stood there laughing at me. I got really mad but now I wish we could
Be that comfortable again.
That oversized sweater comfortable
I hate nostalgia.
I don't listen to our music anymore
Because it reminds me of that one time we drove 40 minutes to pick up drugs
Your anxiety was so bad but you told me I calmed it.
You told me I felt familiar and you were glad I was there
Driving my car feels strange without you in the passenger seat
Your jacket doesn't fit right anymore.
It's like it knows something changed
You changed
Sometimes I wish I drove away
I hate nostalgia
And right now there are 11 empty bottles of alcohol on my floor
And i didn't find you at the bottom of a single one