I've been turned on to a completely different perspective
plus I'm counting all my blessings
But **** all those who criticized me during my struggle
I wish I could confide in people
I never meant to hurt anyone, I confess
I only wanted to find myself
never meant to make such a mess
But I put myself through God's biggest test
And I guess
I'm doing just fine
I might have lost my mind
didn't do anything right
for a minute, but I picked myself back up
and I'm here to win it
It's an adrenaline rush
as I wash
all that I ****** up
I'm praying for luck
But I don't believe in it
I got to work hard for what I get
I admit
I wish you would just believe in me
Give me a little bit of encouraging
Tell me to go strait for my dreams
But it seems
you already know what you want for me
But that's not the way I want to succeed
I got a different plan apparently
But I don't care
it's just not fair
to be in my hair
the signs are everywhere
I got to do what I want, do what I need
and who cares who believes in me?
I'll prove everyone wrong eventually
And I'll be who I'm meant to be
I don't need pre-approval
I'm proud of myself, proud of who I've become
everything I've done
Plus I know everything that I don't want
I've only begun
to get what I want,
I wont stop until I'm number one
and it feels good to have a new direction
I got my faith, it's my protection
Lost my man, my only affection
I got no need to seek any attention
I've faced all of my convictions
I found my head and gave up my addictions
All at once
But that's the cost
for a new adrenaline rush
I sit back and watch
myself grow all up
And admit I'm only human
I'll admit life's a bit too confusing
But I'm refusing to keep on losing
Anymore things that I love
Yes, I already messed everything up
But wait and just give me a little more time
I'm running behind,
but I'll be fine
I'm not stupid or blind
Just watch me now is my turn to shine