the only way out is through
you had taken a back burner again
i was working hard and dreaming big for myself
took the first leap
but now here you are again, front and center
my chest unbalanced
on the brink of eruption
((why do i only keep tissues in the car?))
it hurts because i thought i was over it
but i was wrong today when i said "i feel like i'm back at square one"
no, i've become stronger...
undoubtedly stronger.
i'm hurting like before, except now i see the light at the end of the tunnel
instead of trusting it would reveal itself later.

be careful what you wish for,
you just might get it.
watching this show and idly envying the kind of love
that makes you crazy
only to briefly remember these last 48 hours
it's you i have it with
except the good part where we kiss and make up
(the part that makes it all worth it)
is only a hazy memory now
or, lose the euphemism--
a dead reality.

this is where my closure is
knowing, truly, that you
will never be what i need you to be.
and if you ever get there, i know it will be too late
time to let you go now
without anger, just crushing disappointment.