You had a way out and so do i but i have to stay strong for those on the other side i know they love me i know they mean well but lets just face it their putting me through hell everyday they smile and everyday i cry all i see is rain and all they see is sunshine i know its hard to understand why suicides at high demand but lets just think for a minute why some people want to end it when you're in pain, you cry when your heart breaks you essentially die the pain is real and thats all they feel so the best option for them is to make it all end then the pain is gone and they can finally move on they cant hurt themselves and they can end their own hell.