They always say goodbye before I can say hello.
Always walk out of the door before I can open it for them.
Always check the message but never reply.
Hahahahahahaha I have no chance.
Not today. Not tomorrow. Not any day.
Yet should I continue to try?
These thoughts run through my mind like a warped record, playing over and over again.
Yet each time it plays there are new memories that run through my mind making the record sound a little different each time it's replayed.
It seems you're giving all your love to someone who will never want it from you.
They update their social media and talk to others about wanting to be loved, just wanting someone to care about them.
But you go and show them your love and support, tell them you'll be there whenever they need it.
But they don't want it from you, they want it from someone else..you're…….not enough…
Yet you know you'd still give anything to have them, you still love the unloveable.
You're not the one, as much as you try to be, all because there is no chance given.
You ask them out and get stood up like they never made plans..no call or text of the reason they never showed..
You...Crying into the cloth napkin of the fancy restaurant that you made a reservation for.
Now A dinner for two….halves.
An empty body in one side, and a shattered heart In another.
One eating A-class food...that's tasteless.
The other eating the emotions …..weeping silently as the two sit together.
Both halves stand up and go separate ways, the date is now over.
You know you'll call again tomorrow, send another message attempting to try again.
You leave roses at the doorstep. See them later that day in the trash.
No chance...not enough…
I'm sorry for trying to love you with everything I have...I'm sorry you don't want it.
But if you ever decide you do...the door is always open.
Just like my arms.