I woke up beside you in a room so quiet.
The only sound in my ears was the voice in my head.. I could no longer hide it.
I tap your nose hoping to wake you gently.
When that fails, I hold your nose to prevent your next exhale the next time you breathe deeply.
You awaken.
You ask me what's wrong and all I can do is stare..
I wonder if you can hear the voice that I know really isn't really there.
"Babe?" You say.. sounding even more concerned.
I'm trying, I promise, to come up with the words.
I open my mouth, hoping the words will flow like a river..
Instead, it is my eyes from which the message is delivered.
You hold me as I cry puddles on your collar.
I hold you as the voice grows louder and louder.
I fight the urge to speak because I know of the mess it will leave.
You pull away from me still looking in my eyes so deep.
Deeper, this time, than ever before.
So deep, this time, that you saw through to my core.
I look away...
See this is something I can't do.
Because when I'm not happy, I can't help but blame you.
When you lie there, and you sleep, you dream of who?
You say you need me, but is it the same way I need you?
I'm scared always and I grow weak when I hide it.
So just tell me that this isn't another story of a love unrequited!
Just tell me that you're here for more reasons than because you were invited!
Just tell me that I'm wrong so this voice in my head can be quiet!
Please..
Because sometimes when we argue, you make me feel like I'm not worth the fight..
Just... I mean..
It's me you're in love with...right?