I can't believe what life for me has done nor can i believe where life for me has gone farewell old life i can still see it leaving its so much back there that i miss so much some things i can't completely let go of somethings that i wish was still close enough to touch this new life i speak on has so much in store There's family, money, love, and so much more Im about to get really personal cause i don't think you feel me I'm speaking to you and the man above so that i can start my healing well here it goes and its about to get deep so pay attention real close to what i want you to see whats living inside of me Im young black and handsome with a lot of potential i wouldn't be where I'm at had i been more serious with those books, papers and pencils No need for excuses just gotta keep it moving no need to let anybody in or what you are thinking or what you are doing be honest stay true be loyal do you i didn't maintain that so now what do i do i ****** up plenty times and still got a chance ******* i picked the wrong time to start trying to become a man everything i got, i got it first not second hand what made it worst is that the whole time i thought i was doing fine i was still out of my mind still not walking in a straight line you want me to be real,, i though about grabbing that steel ending the whole deal if you don't know what I'm talking about I'm talking about suicide i was put in a position where they make you decided they as in the good and the bad they as in the happy and the sad they as in my momma and my dad i was torn between the two stuck between what i thought i wanted vs what i needed at thirteen what you expect me to do moms let me do whatever, pops kept a ***** straight i don't know how many others out there can relate just keep in mind this is only phase 1 there are two more phases before I'm even close to being done, just read it