This isn't a poem

But one huge ******* for not being there when I need you, but crawl to me when you're at your lowest.

Stupid. Foolish. Idiotic.
Only a few words to describe how I feel
When I open up my feelings to you
Because of course know you won't care
Even when you ******* say that you do
You just make me more mad
I don't like who I am when you are invlolved anymore
This just makes things worse

And although you'll never know these things
I hope one day you'll stumble upon this and maybe even for a **** MILISECOND think that this could be about you.  

I know I don't deserve this
But what the hell do I deserve at this point really.
This is so stupid. I should be focused on better things.