It's bad I know, to be with you when I long for him. I just needed something to fill the void. The familiarity of your features that I once had mapped out in my mind like constellations faded with our time apart. Time where I fell for him, madly in love with him, it made me realize that I never really was in love with you, only the idea of having someone wrapped around my waist.  Those constellations spark something in my mind that make me momentarily forget about him and that's all I really crave. Those few seconds of bliss. Where my mind isn't tied down by thoughts of him like a ball and chain. Don't get it confused darling it wasn't you I made love to, your body was only convenient.