I'll see her soul floating in thin space surrounded by adoring faces of grotesque amusement. And I'll be there for her, through the nova to super. A sparkle in the stars of a goddess that sees all and accepts the fate that she has chosen, beaming in the orange afterglow of knowing that you'll continue onward with her through her journey An intertwining entanglement twisting spiral of emotion spoken verse through shreds of hair overlapping ears enveloped in the mind of a poet the paper queen and razor king the light plays a soulful time stretched across harpsichords of ****** bone she stands amidst the destruction. A beauty of ******* tainted blood running in rivulets down her thighs. Looking at her vile nameplate in the mirror. The object of her hatred her own soul. Betrayed easily by a lovers hand A lovers love convulsing putrid green from behind her eyes a demon that's been awakened a last call for a feeling long since forgotten but longed for breathlessly yearning to feed on her hardened heart. Cold and barren from years of other diversions besides blowing her calming storm over it. A festering wound from whence came her own destruction. The bracelets left by a lovers palms greased for enjoyment a monkeys paw make a wish but be careful wishing is for lighthearted fools. Only time can save her now. Stitching together her spine with rusty wire and dull needles. Hinges that are necessary to open up the door to the fates that twist her insides. Cotton truly makes her tick. Made of straw old and rotten hanging on a cross a symbol forgotten. Watch the stitches unravel and conspire into snakes swimming the oceans miles drowning the last visage of hope. The soft white underbelly of a faith long ago dubbed "unreliable" who will save them now? A circle with Cs on either end a faith an idea the doll deserted in the corner of a child's room that never came home with a broken arm and a cracked porcelain face waiting for someone to wipe off the dust, make her feel wanted again. Shell wait until the air caves in her delicate mouth. Blowing holes through a time faded dress. Caressing decaying eyelashes about to fall away Caressing the downfall outstretched hands that reach so far the decay sets in as ****** claw regression into obsession yet can never make it to the other side where acceptance rules the heart and blonde hair fades after so long leaving the ravished ones old and worn A tower on a hill, the hair flowing still birth into the warm womb of a bees nest built for a porcelain doll long since face has faded to Raggedy Ann china ***** spreading her 1950's Compton pantaloons to the masses wondering why none of them will invite her into their hybrid plantations of rioting smiles and half lit eyes that never seem to stop tearing Ripping the seems of societies blunders the under stitching that hides the batteries of a thing not present red hair fade to gray as times progresses the lines fade into a remote inkling of remembrance. The hands that covered her existence pushing her gently yet leaving painted bruises. An art exhibit in the making. Pay me for pleasure I bring but leave my soul to peace Leave my peace to suffering This is exhibit A. witness testify to a false maker of false hopes a dreamers dream disappearing on the lids of a waking being. So is the theme spoken in rainbow brilliance the soul is trapped in a toys body break me discard me no use for this this is exhibit B. a lifeless rendition of a restless warrior begging to be freed from his crime in watching his own hands children and a pregnant woman willing to sell her soul for redemption. Break him, discard him but never let him forget Time elapses travel to the future, Raggedy Andy and the soul a machine cold and calculating everyone wants one for Christmas unwrap the gift and sell it tomorrow wont get much out of it. Devoid of extraneous packaging it's lost it's worth and the scars are blessed tracing them with my tongue a willing conspirator in your lie that you live day to day. Praying to whatever that tomorrow you won't wake up and the pain will stop. Should have never bequeathed my soul then because now I'll never let you go The welcomed touch of another to soothe the decay build a house of legos galore a horror left untold but whispered in empty space someday it will reach the ears all will be out of place the blessing of scars and the blessing of tides. Wash the dreams into reality yet with your eyes squeezed shut you cannot see the smiles I flash you from across the room. Another cold winter with plastic walls, the floor rough beneath my paper thin feet. I am getting older and your passion still falls to ripping me open and seeing what color I am today. Your dream is my hell. A reality we all want but some never have a blessing of the tides for you but not the patchwork of needle veins left on my heart A ragdoll sows well after unthreading unraveled secrets that are being spoken a hidden meaning in things known so well and held so dear the addict is addicted the silver polish of another exit and a feared exit (exist) picking away at the surface he is relieved to see his own reflection on fates tinderbox. Matches with his name on them and other wealth's of knowledge he cannot comprehend. I take in his apathy and replace him whole. Existence is superficial floating ecstasy through a ravers midnight meltdown the drugs that soothed soon are smoothed out of the system a gentle touch the softest if skin paper thin paper thin licking the edges and listening fast, a deep puff, euphorium. Wanting to play tonight the caterpillar sees, puffing his own blue smoke fast. bloodshot eyes hide the daylight from your stolen afternoon. The headboard begs for some grease, let's at today, my love, let's break me again The twins of wonderland and the cat disappearing a story forever after faintly breathing from the lips of the souls sought wondering sharing a shotgun with a confidant the after taste sour and strained. Not enough we all see into your twisted head. Plucking on my heart strings too rough. Wanting to see me bleed. Not this time the queen of hearts will soon beat you with a flamingo and send you flapping through the hourglass a king of king and clams A nursery rhyme for all children to sleep a child's toy finally dies leaving behind soiled memories
a VERY OLD poem written long ago with Brook Ilges (Italicized.) this was a night long poetry rant. it falls into the "good for what it is" kinda category. It has no structure, no reason, no rhyme. Just hyped up teens spitting words to each other.