if i ever write about you,
i'm sorry.

believe me,
i probably didn't do it on purpose,
but, sometimes,
things get really hard
and there's so much
compiled in my head
of all the things i didn't say,
i just need some sort of release
and that's where writing comes in.

i didn't say any of this
to your face
because confrontation is terrifying,
i avoid it at all costs
which meant i avoided you,
i was too scared
that the words
would bubble out of my throat,
floating off my lips
and find their way
to your ears
to whisper all of my worries
and thoughts