soft whimpers and shaking pains
slow descent into paralysis
struggling movement
silent moments broken by cries

(he's only five)
(i don't want him to die)
(i feel like i didn't
love him enough while i could)
(i should have taken him
to the dog park more,
or taken him on more walks.)
(i should have been kinder,
and softer,
and a more loving master.)
(i should have wanted him more.)