I don't know
how to miss somebody
in the right way,
I can wake up
in a bad state
still bitter
over things I said
or didn't say,
hungry for brine
and salt licking
my open chest
and curved spine.

The ribbons curling in the sky
move out across
the bluest bay,
I have fished so many times on the rocks
overlooking the military base,
the carriers roll by;
the submarines hum in the deep
there antenna in an operatic frenzy
and the captain is to busy to sleep.

I wonder what is moving
inside of you
just beneath the breakers.

Each time
'I throw a fish back into the fray,
I hope the bombs of their bodies
make noises that you can hear
even where the ribbons
can't tie up your soul.

I always leave around noon
my gills burning
and the air crashing
with all those sonic booms.

I gulp,
and gulp,
and put myself to sleep,
with some bottled ocean,
and a few good memories
of your heart,
that trembling, silently scared
deep.

So let me know how to be right again,
take your line and weight and
squirming bait,
and teach me how to miss you
in the right way.