Yes, I am sad that I pushed you away.
I regret the things I did to you, and the way I made you feel.
For what I put you through.
I feel ashamed of the choices I made.
But I can't change that.

I am hurt, because I miss you.
Because I love you.
I've been wallowing in my own sadness and depression.
I'm going to get help.
But I owe it to myself to let you go.
I'm not saying it will be easy, or that I might wake up tomorrow and not still have these feelings.
I'm been trying to push these feelings away, instead of letting them in.

I forgive myself.
I forgive you.