Hot water rushed through my ***** hair
With my hands wrapped around my forehead
I’m sitting down in the shower
I can’t believe this just happened
I don’t even know what happened
How did we even get here?
You should know that I get silent when you pressure me
I never said anything to hurt you
I thought I used to make you happy
I just wanted to play a few games of Rocket League, I swear
We could have done anything and went anywhere
Still I was silent
You said you’d just go home and I can hear how upset you are
Still I was silent
The shower is running now
You texted me twice and my heart dropped when I read it
I knew you were doing that to prove a point but I was so hurt
That when you ended it I felt like I should have said something else
And of course I regret it
All I had to do was get food with you after my shower
But now
Hot water rushed through my ***** hair
Down my face and into the drain
Along with all the emotions I had running through me
I was finally defeated
Maybe some of the things you said, you didn’t really mean it but
I know that all came from the heart
I thought that I had patched all the wounds I had made before but the most important gestures were never done
Life kept kicking me down and you were there to pick me up
I had always appreciated that, you were willing to sacrifice too much for me and I would have done the same for you
Even the days where I felt like I had seen enough of you
My chest pulled my closer and closer to you like your rib cage held the key to keep my heart pumping
And suddenly I no longer held the key to happiness for you
So yeah, I was defeated
The same day that I told all of my friends is that day that life kicked me down even harder
Everything was my fault and they threw that in my face
I called in to work and they said don’t come back since you were going to be late
How could all of this happen to me, did I deserve this, I thought I was great
Remember, that’s what you used to say
So when you asked me how was I doing, the only thing I could say was
“Gr8”
a few hours later I was put on a pedestal to say things I didnt want to say
but what else is one to do when there is nothing left to ruin his day
now that I think about it
everyday I’ll still wake up to see your face
because I also forgot to give you back your picture frame
cold water rushes through my ***** hair
I whisper to the skies
I know that someday I’ll see you there
Until then, my love, please take care
I wish you the best
The next time we speak
I’ll tell you that you were the best thing that’s ever happened to me


k.w.