there are days where i do not want to write
where i leave my thoughts in the cupboards of my mind
where i lay in bed drowning in a sea of overthinking

there are days where i do not want to write
afraid that someone will find the notebook held with secrets meant only to be seen for my own eyes

there are days where i do not want to write
because i do not have the energy to pick up a pen and scribble down all the feelings and emotions from my heart
it is all too much sometimes to even think

there are days where i do not want to write
because i don't think my words will be heard, seen, or understood
so i keep silent
like i always have

there are days where i do not want to write
but i know that writing heals
so even when i'd rather do nothing and leave my thoughts in my mind
i will tell myself gently to write
to spill out the water that's been holding inside these ribcages for so long
in order for myself to heal