Im sorry that I cant comprehend your sorrow and how mine seems like nothing to you and its ok because I cant expect you to think of me in a time like this, but Ive shown you that I care, Ive tired so hard to show you that Im there, you went from calling me frequently to now hardly taking time to speak to me, I dont know what to think if your futher because of your depression and maybe this is the reason for your regression; I tired to decipher thinking "He's just busy" and "He's just down", my mind is getting dizzy; I tell you I miss you, That I just wanna see and kiss you, and you say your busy and have no time although Ive given you so much of mine, and then I see you make time for your friends so I guess it just depends on who you make important. You confuse me with the attention on some days and the rejection most days I dont thinks it fair and I cant tell you because Im so selfless that I dont wanna seem selfish, but its hurting me because every man has made me feel last on there list and I cant even tell you this; So all I can do is keep a piece of my heart protected keep it from getting affected, because now Im really feeling Im just irrelevant to you and although that might me true Ill still be here for you when you feel blue but I have to take care of myself because one has to value oneself; Im beautiful and smart with a tremendous heart and maybe things will change and you'll see the woman thats here is real but yet again maybe you wont and its ok Im use to it maybe Im not meant to be loved to be hugged to be shown for once Im held high above so Ill just kept loving myself because one thing Ive learned is that no one with love me like I love me and Ill have to learn to never put someone above me....