it's heart
mulled over beating
then it’s name ran at me
i flinch
hocking back spit
arms aim fire
fists, guard our eyes

stay back horrid child
for far knowing
what evil you do
does not stop
the evil in you

the taunting and twisting
on cuts filed under ‘whups'
shall we call them synergies
her smile chews
on my blistering knots

but know in my remembrance
how i’ll remember you
blundering blind in a train station
a dumb bleached blonde
and in everyone’s way

knocking over children
smiling endeared at me

oh but not by me
not  the meaning of me
not the feeling of me
you
****
you only ever loved me in the dark