Fighting to get away from sleep, suffocating, I woke up. Not quite together- my mind wasn't sure what it was doing, Only half aware of the blade that traced your initials on my wrists.
I stumbled and roamed the house staining the carpets with blood eventually collapsing at the foot of my parents bed, falling asleep once again. When my Mother found me she was scared and confused.
This dream was different to the re-occuring dream i usually have. Instead of watching the usual dream of you taking your own life; instead of seeing your face, one i had known and loved my whole life, morph into an unfamiliar being... I had murdered you.