she thrived on discord and imperfect ideals or so she claimed to anyone who would listen but in truth it was only the moments of near-discord while she was still firmly in control of the imperfections she most identified with- those were her best times the moment that control was lost- which could be traced back, incidentally, to a late winter late night late in the week- at that moment she actually listened to someone else and stopped living only by her own truths she cracked completely disintegrated into misery and immediately gave in upon the realization that the world she loved didn’t exist except to/for her for a while it was bad everyone around her stood on a distant shore watching her drown on dry land with disturbingly dry eyes I want to tell you that she got better but that would be a different story the only thing that improved was her ability to fake a life she couldn’t even bother to live. the end