Hello doctor.

I don't know why I'm here but I suppose I guess I do.
Each day I wish I didn't wake up because the day I can't get through.

This year just keeps getting worse and worse and I'm worried I won't cope.
I'm starting to lose the will to live, I'm beginning to lose all hope.

My nan died back in January and I've never dealt with death.
I was in the room with her when she took her very last breath.

My family fell to pieces and some awful things occurred.
My dad had a breakdown and for all this I was unprepared.

My nursing degree was difficult but I tried all the same.
My boiling feelings of loss and anger inside I tried to tame.

But I had been sick for a long time with what I did not know.
The constant pain and worry was bringing me so low.

Finally in May they found that my brain was slipping out.
My spine was filled with liquid and my mind was filled with doubt.

Then came the surgery, my head they did decompress.
They removed some brain and spinal cord so the pressure would be less.

The pain was unbearable and I lost all sense of time.
I still tried to smile and pretend that all was fine.

Treated but not cured, disabled now forever.
My partner held me close at night and helped to hold me all together.

Weak now that I was, my old life gone as well.
A new job I did go for and my positivity did swell.

Thinking things were changing, that happiness was in reach.
My cursed life could not have this, a lesson it had to teach.

My boyfriend, my one and only, had made a big mistake.
He had managed to **** another, I can't cope with this for ***** sake!

Now my job is getting harder and I'm failing every day.
Is it normal to just want to die, should I be feeling this way?

I don't know why I'm here, I just don't know what to do.
I don't think I am coping, today I can't get through.