Why am I always so optimistic about the future? Truth is I've always been drawn to negative things. Anything people would normally avoid I'd find myself running towards. At first it was probably my natural distrust of people. How could I put stock in their opinions as they tell me how bad my choices have been and when I look a little closer all I can see is them being even more ****** up than I am.

At least I'm honest about it. The way I see things, there cant be any room to grow if your always hiding behind some pristine illusion. Don't get me wrong, I'm not claiming perfection or anything but I am striving for it and that has to count for something. Admittedly, my sins may be greater than the average but, I've always maintained a strict code and not once have I crossed it.

I get it though, its easier to judge someone for who they were than to take their measure every time you see them. Especially when that person doesn't hide from their past. Just understand it's not apathy that you see but acceptance. It was all of those bad decisions that led me to do all of the good that I've accomplished. It was a reaction. The pendulum swung so far in the wrong direction that when it changed course it had enough momentum to push me even farther in the right one.

So, I guess what I'm really trying to say is yea, I do have faith in a better tomorrow and of course I believe that a person can change. I have to.