I do not feel sad or ashamed. I do not feel anything. I just am, here in this pea green box.
The windows and the clock are placed together strategically-- window, clock, window-- to mock the inmates
The windows stand at attention to our right, twin soldiers with everything to hide. They are useless in their colorless uniform. I think sometimes they giggle at their own stupid jokes. I can hear them when no one else is talking.
Between them floats the clock, a prim and proper gatekeeper with everything to hide small and round, untouchable. I watch him move his hands round and round they go. I think sometimes, he gets nervous and slows them down because everyone is watching him.
It does not matter why I am here why any of us are here. When the bell rings, we are free of guards and silence. We become part of One again. It is impossible to tell the difference between us and the rest of them.
The only proof will be the paper warriors that dragged us in by our hair. Tomorrow they will disappear. They won't exist for a while.
I can feel in my gut that release is close. My insides shake and I am ready to be outside again.