i need to sleep
yet i sit here at my laptop
trying to find the words
to accurately describe how i'm feeling
but i'm coming up short
it's a mix
of exhausted
and annoyed
and joyful
what a weird combination
would we be a weird combination?
or would we work well together
is there a future?
or is this just a far fetched fantasy
composed of infatuation and the feeling of
not wanting to end up alone
i just want to know how i actually feel about you
with so many miles between us
it's hard to say
but sometimes it's easier to say things
at a distance
courage from behind a screen
but you have recently come up missing
and i don't know how to take it
don't know if you're wasting my time
if talking to you was a mistake
i just don't want my heart to break
but if i don't put myself out on the line
how will i know if i'm a good catch or not?
don't want to wear my heart on my sleeve
don't want to be easy to read
just want to know where to go
from here
want to close the gap between the states that separate us
and the gap between your lips and mine
but again i wonder
is this even worth a try?
are you messing with my heart
or are you being true
i wish i was sure
but i'm uncertain
about you.