Give enough faith
strike a fulc-
*** for a balanced rack:
shift all the mass
and the *****? It's an arduous tack --
Have you clutched a spring,
felt the choke in the wire ring?
It is smoke to my throat-tight and tears.
Look: all the weight
all the trust that I've fishing-cast
on a Man who's not a man,
who is more than that.
For the love that's agape and
that's flooding past
with no end-sign in sight.
It's Him whose advice
that I pivot towards
like a rod guiding light
guiding lightning fo'ards
But for once, though I list;
like some empty gourds
I'm alack, lack-a-days.
God, I've a Führer, I'm a furious
man, with a shame, and a love
that I can't I just
can't
I'm in love
but it's broke
so rabbinical Man: what do I do now,
so lost? so lost.
We love each other.
Can't you leave me alone?
Am I a Job, to be taken from home
and broke? In the dust? In the pain, stupid
lust, and my tears? Where's the mountain
moving now?
Now, I'm just a fool;
you're the Lord,
and I know that too well.
You've a plan
-- I assume. --
and sometimes I quell
all the fears, sheathe my dagger-filled eyes.
But I'm mad, God.
I'm mad.
So what now? I love you God,
and I've belt out my piece.
So what now? I was hoping
that this poem would rose-petal
to peace
but it's not. So I'll wait.
In flaming throat-tight and tears.
I shift my weight,
restless-pray,
pray that wisdom perseveres.
What an odd pain, that has nothing to do with ****** injury.