I have conversations with you in my head, my mouth is moving a silent film with a torn screen I picture what you would say, wrap your beautiful words in quotation marks. If they were real they'd be wrapped in a sunrise I imagine that I am funnier and wittier than I actually am so I can imagine the laughter coming from your mouth and even though this is a silent film your smile in my mind takes handfuls of weight from my heart ...and almost makes up for the locked doors that dominate what I see
But the torn screen warps your smile and those locked doors mock me, pouring shovels full of weight back into my heart.