"Do you even want to be with me?"
"Do you even care?"
The words hit me like a truck,
knocking the breath out of my lungs, my voice going faint.
I do care, I always cared.
"It seems like you're pushing me away, it seems like you are not trying"
I am trying, I'm always trying
"All you ever do is push me away"
I held my breath, trying not to break down, trying not to show him my pain.
You just don't understand
"You overthink too much"
I do overthink
I do ***** too much
I am an unhappy person
I've never been in a relationship where they actually cared about me
I've always been cheated on, lied to, used for ****** pleasure.
I do not know how to be in a relationship
I do not know how to be happy.
I do not know how to be loveable
I'm sorry I have too many flaws. I'm sorry I was not what you expected.
I'm sorry I failed at something once again.

"Do you wanna go?" He asked after the dead silent, my tears running dry.
"Yeah. I want to go."