Today I knew my life so far has been a mouse in the grass hiding. There have been times I dared to cross a patch of open ground Where the sun fell on my so brightly or the rain so softly that I could not bear to be so radiant. I have been hiding in my grass-stalk world, and calling it living.
But now I know I am the larger self as well as the small I am the conciousness of rock and swamp, of fire, eagle, mouse, and grass-stalk, of all the great abundant earth.
I know through me she sings, creates, loves, grieves when i hid in the grass I hid from myself. I know my grief is deep.
I listen to Elders who know how to welcome their grief They know when they hold it grief is one face of deep, healing love.
The gleanings of a hiding mouse cannot meet my needs for life's sweetness, its peace, pleasures, and joy. This small hoard of treasures cannot compare to expressing the gifts I am given to share.
The plans I scratched into the dust will fade . . . I can shrug away the straps that hold me to what was and release the baked clay banks ahead The first gift I can give in any moment is to be there.