Today
I almost caved
From the moment I woke up
I knew I wanted to talk to you
no clue what would of been said
but i wanted to see you in our game again

Struggling with the temptation
i typed out an email
I hope you're okay
almost hitting send I felt something in my heart
how disappointed I will be in myself
for relapsing
because that's what we were
a drug

Closing out the screen
i felt further from you than before
a little bit more healed
the illusion of you
fading

Maybe you aren't okay
and that's your fault