I have tried to feel better
I am constantly trying, but I am not doing it for me.
No, I am doing it for you and everyone else.
I just simply don’t care anymore.
No matter how hard I try, I never seem to be enough for you and that breaks my heart,
It breaks it over and over again.
All that is left of it is the tiny broken pieces held together with tape and band aids.
But you don’t care.
The only thing you care about is if I am making you look good.
I was always to overweight for you,
Never pretty enough for you,
Never as “put together as you”.
When I was dying on the inside, you didn’t care,
You were more worried about the money that I was costing you.
I have tried to feel better, to be better.
Better for you,
Hoping that one day I will be enough.
Enough for you.