I wonder who
Who I am
Who I should be
Who I can be
Maybe I should just be.
But that doesn't seem to work all the time
It can even be bad at times
But that's who I am.

I think about ideas
Of how you are
Of how things got to be like this
They say people change
But did you change?
Or was it just the way you saw me
Did you realize you could do without me?
You should have told me then.

I told you.
I told you to tell me when you wanted out
I told you everything I ever could
But I guess at one point, you did too.
I guess you stopped caring a long time ago
I know you know when people want to listen
I know when you don't care anymore
It's all different, what else can I say?

Was it because you got tired of my ****?
Was it because I got too complicated that it was easier to just drop me like a hot issue?
Because that's sure as hell how I feel.

I'm tired.
Tired of worrying about you
When I know I'm actually the last thing on your mind.
I knew, and I still did everything to make sure you were ok.

I cried.
God,I cried.
I cried in fear of your problems
The demons you couldn't run from
The ideas of you couldn't erase
The way you got when a bad thing happened

I cried endless nights
Because I've never cared for someone this much
And that wasn't fair
Because you've probably never cried
Because you probably had my petty issues in one ear and out the other.
Because you're okay not having me around and it still bothers me like anything.

Sure.
Sure I seem okay
Sure I may say that I'm great
But am I really?
When did you become one of them?
One of the people I hid my emotions from?
Maybe it was when you stopped listening
Maybe it was when you realized things were more important.
Just maybe.