"i'll take a shot"
not literal --
no open, bleeding, physical wound,
no injection into my body,
only ingestion.

"i'll take another shot"
the phrase "drink to forget"
buzzes dully in the back of
my hazy brain

the reflection of my regrets
can be seen clearer
and clearer after every
additional shot,
sad blue spots on my dark
brown orbs

oh, joy --
sleepy, drink.
angry, drink.
depressed, drink.
celebratory, drink.
drink.

have a drink,
revel in the burn.
"drink to forget"
"drink to remember"

oh, *****,
how happy you make me--
even if temporary

laugh, giggle, jest.
ingest,
more and more
until i can't handle another

physical capacity for
movement and judgment: gone.
            from reality?
             from my problems?
      all of the above.

oh, *****,
oh, joy,
how happy am I?

       I revel in this feeling of lightness,
                                       a feather.
                                       an atom. weighing
                           nearly nothing...
heavy.
oh, no.