today my mum walked into my house for the first time in years. the first thing she said was, "you drink too much." i laughed, because it's true.
today i punched a hole in my roof thought i might as well create something to drain away the pain. i cried, because it still hurt.
and let me tell you this. the hollowness does not end. it fills up with a dull ache every now and then but when the ache subsides we fill it up, with alcohol and splashes of color.
we never get better, but we are never worse. we fall, we get lost, and we seldom find our way back to ourselves.
& we might be wanderers, but at least we can take our shots at guessing who we are.