I don’t understand.
I have never wanted to do this before.
I was always afraid of those who did.
Always afraid I would lose them,
Forever.
All I did was try it once
Never realizing what I was getting myself into.
All the stress piles up,
School, Sports, Society.
Never knowing where it’s coming from.
Never stopping.
“It will only happen during school” I say,
“It is only a onetime thing” I say.
Only it isn’t
It isn’t going to stop until life stops.
Forever.
June 20, 2016