We all watched you, letting go of life

It was like life was a chain link fence
and we watched as you spent
your days trying to chew your way through

It always seemed so suffice
you'd smile that smile while embracing the demon
because you still saw hope on the other side

This day was different
so much was lost
the struggle to hard

In silence for five hours
you struggled with the thoughts, pacing back and forth
fighting the voices inside your head
I can see the sweat pouring from your eyes

Today there was no answer, no hope
no fixing the pain inflicted...the sorrow caused
so today, gun in hand...you blew yourself
straight through to the other side

Looking back now seeing you gnaw
at the chain links...I wonder if I could have done more
maybe held you just a minute longer
or listened better with embracing ears

With a tear in my eye, memories intact in my heart
my good byes fall upon your rock hard shell
the chain link fence a symbol of your inner hell

I looked into the eyes of your children
searching for a glimpse of you
but you took that glimmer of joy from them
the minute the gun shot blew

A single Calla Lily is what I dropped on your grave today
a single meaningless gesture on your stone cold grave