Everything I have done was all in vain. Everything I do ends up with no happy ending.
But I'm not gonna give up.
I will never give up. I will continue to try to fill the void until it's finally full.
Life's to short to be sad and depressed. I can finally see that now. I will find my happy ending even if I have to travel to the ends of earth to find it.
Am I happy right now? Hell no I'm not.
I will throw away all the darkness and hate and try to make anew. Try to make my life right and walk away from everyone's negativity.
I will continue to fill my void with happiness I don't have yet. I'm not gonna give up. I will not  succumb to the darkness again. So ******* and everything you try to throw my way.